“Feels like the crowd is sayin ‘gimme more'” ?

When I started college, I knew it was going to be hard work academically. I would have NEVER thought it was going to be hard outside of the classroom. I have always been that ONE person that anybody could depend on. I was the friend who would drive to your house at 3 a.m. when you’re crying just to make sure you were ohkay. That is just my personality. Even if a ‘friend’ did something horrible to me, if they were in need, I was always there. Now adays, it is all different. I can not be the same friend I was before. Not because I don’t want to be, but because I just can’t. I don’t have the time (or gas seeings how I have two jobs & I am only making $7 an hour and I can barely pay my car note every month) to be that person anymore. It hurts my feelings SOOOO bad when some one says “you’ve changed” or “you don’t care about me the way you used to”, because none of that is true. Yes, my circumstances may have changed, and Yes, it may not SEEM like I care. But what I want to know is, WHAT ABOUT ME? When can I start worrying about myself? And when can I focus and put my EVERYTHING into my dreams? Because if given the same situation I am in, I wonder how they would handle it? Would they finally see where I am coming from? Or are their time management skills different than mine (which btw I believe I manage my time VERY well!)? I feel like everyone wants me when it is convienant for them, probably because I have always allowed it to be this way. What ever the case may be, it just hurts. It hurts because I thought that being the kind of friend I am to them, they would do the same in return. Maybe it is time for new friends?

Has anyone else had this problem before? Advice would be GREATLY appreciated!

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